some people say i done alright for a girl

bmi @ 2005-10-22T19:21:00

2005-10-22T23:21:12Z

no one has ever told me they love me before.

bmi @ 2005-09-28T21:09:00

2005-09-29T01:11:24Z

the first dream i can remember for a while is little me hunting crabs on a beach. that's a nice thing to dream about

missing all kinds of things, worcester's not cutting it!

alright, so i have this plastic dinosaur and a gumby and i made them hug each other and now seti has taken the styrofoam penis emma carved and stuck it to gumby (who represents me usually BTW) and stuck a clothespin to his head. straight hilar

LA DA DI DA DA DA

BF'S PLZ

2005-05-01T21:51:39Z

HEY LIL LEX AND I ARE LOOKING FOR SOME NEW BOYFRIENDS

us: raven-haired lovelies, one both jacked and an emotional drunk and the other prone to vom on weekends and likes nachos

you:
-wear your pants well
-likes cleanig up our dirty shit
-consume inhuman numbers of burritos/refried beans with us
-funkay
-jgrijigjreigj degrassi?
-will sex us up right

ugh god just apply and see how you do

we love boyfriends.

oh somerville

2005-04-17T00:40:44Z

i know people that, when you say something like "it's been kind of a long day" reply with "YOU'VE had a long day? I etc etc etc etc etc your mom gue8tughrog"

and then they're hurt when you say (maybe a little sarcastically) "i guess you win."

in other news, i'm pretty much torn apart by burritos and disease

sun doesn't get me out of bed

2005-04-04T18:15:10Z

can't wake up anymore, ever.
can't fall asleep at night.

am i going to school? why don't i ever do homework?

i had this dream last night that ruby was hiding under my bed in this room-not cute or mischevious but kind of fucking scary, she was like baring her teeth. today i have to admit there's no way she could have fit, not with my empty cardboard box collection. and that choice keyboard. woot

i'm a little tired of everyone talking about boys all the time. here's how i feel these days concerning YOUNG ROMANCE
disinterested

schlong

2005-04-02T21:39:00Z

so last night not so fun for a while but not so bad, had a basement troll throw water on me and rediscovered some hot skateboarding skillz and saw an ep of the ashlee simpson show that somehow had managed to elude me until then.
but then we went to the most delicious diner in worcester! too good 2 b true, for serious. and some craZy eyed man told Lil KK that he was lucky to be with four beautiful girls and demanded to shake his hand, poor KK was overwhelmed.

thursday night i heard more confessions of adoration, but i tried to distract myself with vodka and cool frogs on the discovery channel and it seemed to work pretty well...
sometimes when i get drunk i try to talk only in spanish, too ahaha

here's the highlight of the week:
computer going on the blitz and having its man tell me we're all pretty much cyborgs
now we're dating

UPDATING ELGAY?!?!?!??!

2005-03-17T22:01:03Z

TERRIBLE WEEK!
absolutely vom
but it's just about over

yeah, it was a week of papers and midterms and disease (to those who inquired: NOT gonorrhea, strep.)
and i was a little overwhelmed and a little upset but i'm feeling better
wait
HAPPY ST PADDY'S DAY
honor ireland
i won't, because of ^^^

but you know not having fun builds character.

bmi @ 2005-02-05T03:39:00

2005-02-05T08:43:41Z

LISREN!!!!!!!!!!

i have realized a great many things.
and thanks to beer and jack daniels i will admit them to you.

one./ i want to be a stronger woman

two. i can't use boys to make me feel better/validate myself

because i am more than appearance, eyeliner and dark hair

no girl is her appearance
or anybody for that matter

there is so much to know and care about

i realize i am smart enough to know my capabilties and when i am doing something worthwhile. i cannot depend on others

we all need convictions

i have some, but they aren't there as often as i'd like.

from the roots of my soul come a gentle cohersion

2005-01-27T06:15:37Z

You scored as Sandy. You are an easygoing idealist. You follow your own internal values and also know how to have a good time. Make sure that you are not so easygoing and fun seeking that you don't ever realize your ideals.

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Sandy

83%

Jimmy

78%

Caleb

72%

Seth

67%

Marissa

67%

Summer

61%

Oliver

56%

Kirsten

55%

Anna

44%

Luke

44%

Julie

39%

Ryan

33%

Hailey

17%

What OC character are you?
created with QuizFarm.com

HA note that my top three are the old men of the oc.
awesome

watched alot of boy meets world tonight ie perfect evening

2005-01-08T06:01:59Z

weelllll it seems like a lovely month with my six one seven lovers is winding to an end as our beloved alexual and n_e_m_o head back to virginia and indiana. i'm a little sad. or kind of alot sad. and missing the last hullabaloo with youse hurts my head as well. in case anyone feels neglected (or because i feel guilty) i'm doing so because i would hate to lose touch with these friends that i'm not able to see very often, and i'm always always confident in seeing you asaaaappppp ow bug in house is biting me

but this month just reaffirms that i...i sweat you. all of you.

and fucking boy meets world-<333333333

PS. MALE JEN LAMB LEIKS ME AND LEX HAHA we are sex goddesses

so, watched any degrassi lately

2005-01-07T03:57:07Z

so along with being hot next semester i'm going to get a job while doing good for the children

that's all

twothousandandfo'

2004-12-31T21:11:48Z

two thousand and four was more of a year than most if i remember correctly. emotionally left fucking somerville high school, and realized that out of it i'm ten million times happier for the most part. high school should be better than it is. a glorious summer spent with super people who have become some of my best friends, and then leaving familiarity, the same people i kept all my life, to strike it out in WOOORRCCEESSTTTAAA. met sick kids in said worcester. lost someone who offered support/love to the infinity, realized how much one needs such stuff, realized now i cry much more than i ever did. drank more than i probably ever have, but renewed interest in my own education. read innumerable eighties love novels, but some really worthwhile books too. came home to people i missed and was excited happy jumpy to see, not everyone does.

i think the biggest difference in me myself is i like to be outside i lot more than i used to

and now i live across from a body of water known as "dead hooker pond"

for 2005 i want to go places and do some dope shit

HAVE A GLORIOUS NEW YEARS

i got a brand new pair of roller skates

2004-12-29T06:49:25Z

blah blah tired/cold PIX TYME

puuuurrrrppleee rain! purple rain!

2004-12-24T06:49:50Z

no christmas spirit-negative christmas spirit.

i got teary sitting here and i can't even really say why i'm so unhappy right at this time.

whatever you do, don't tell me to cheer up, or smile
i'll fucking deck you

my head is frozen

i want to love you, i want to love and treat you right.

2004-12-19T00:36:42Z

i remember the last night at clark this song (see below) came on and we all just drunkenly sang along
it was pretty awesome, and the month will be a little off without it all.

but hey 617 is sweet.

AND WHAT!

2004-12-18T06:30:13Z

so yo this is what happened

me and nora take a stroll over to dunkin donuts in busy little trendmeister davis sq. she's finishing a cigarette, we are enjoying the view from the bus stop
dunkins is empty except for one man who had gone in about a minute before.
we turn to do the damn thing and drunken pleasant irish man comes*
*note: occasionally alexis' neighbor imports irish comrades to hang out with him, and they get hammered and make everything hilarious
and asks nora if he may use her cell phone which nora gives him in pure delight (she just loves an irish lush) she has to dial the number. he asks if she remembers the name of the girl. he tells the missy on the end of the line FELIZ NAVIDAD
at that time the young man who had gone into DD's before us comes out WITH THE CASH REGISTER DRAWER AND A WAD OF MONEY IN HIS HAND

BECAUSE WE WITNESSED HIM ROBBING DUNKIN DONUTS
and drunken irish man saved our lives.

I KNOW RIGHT

bmi @ 2004-12-09T05:32:00

2004-12-09T10:33:05Z

what exactly am i looking for?

hay hay hay

2004-12-02T17:26:11Z

so i've gone to new levels of BUMBLING, let me tell you
basically saw EC (eye-contacter) immediately became dead from the neck up and came close to lighting my nice long scarf on fire
if he doesn't think that's sexy, then i don't know what's what.
can someone teach me how to fucking restrain myself please?!? i was twitchy and spazzy and basically became my 5th grade self when mrs goullaud had me sit on my hands because i flailed so much.

my friend dan tells me he must be into me, buuuttttt eghhhhh

anyhoo! (i just snorted while typing that) we took a driving tour of beautiful worcester and found some pretty nice areas. as well as the CASTLE. totally killed the mood for the poor souls trying to fishbowl in peace in the car next to ours, but you know...we really had to get out and look
OH AND
I SAW A POSSUM
it dived onto the street and we got to stop and see that possum, it was craaaazaaayy

dance party this weekend. and a little vodka in my fridge.

bmi @ 2004-11-13T16:30:00

2004-11-13T21:32:30Z

i'm kind of missing things right now.

well, not things. people.

you're probably one of them (after all only the bestests read this)

oh and i didn't get the drawing or english class i wanted EFF YOU CLARK but i am taking spanish at 9 in the morning, score.

just!

2004-11-10T06:55:54Z

honestly no matter how hard i try nothing but NOTHING will make anything stick to my walls

shiiiiiiittt

CHUNDA MONKEY KID

2004-11-06T18:41:27Z

What Kind of Drunk Are You?
Brought to you by Rum and Monkey

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY

ANY WAY YOU WANT IT, THAT'S THE WAY YOU NEED IT

2004-11-05T07:03:49Z

watch out for my not posi journal entry (its down there)

i don't feel any self confidence these days, nor do i feel like i do any work or learn much of anything at clark. to clarify-i am not given much of anything that requires comprehension or thought, dissection, and nothing that i feel like is personally important to me.

but i wouldn't say im unhappy, so don't worry. if you're worried?

bmi @ 2004-11-04T13:03:00

2004-11-04T18:08:07Z

the next four years are our opportunity to come together and resist.

how divided this country is

bmi @ 2004-11-03T11:58:00

2004-11-03T17:05:27Z

not mentioning the election
only to say my john kerry thing on the wall symbolically fell last night how deep.

last night i got substantially high for the first time in a while and went on a CRAZY INSANE BINGE FEST! jebus, i amaze myself. every vending machine i saw caused me to start ripping through my bag searching for quarters, all flustered and slitted red eyes. i almost want to give a list of everything i inhaled, but c'mon that's lame.
a snooze sounds tempting

i only smoke to pick up b0iz and it works really well, sacrifice yo lungs for sex!

my friends decided to decorate my room which means there's now alot of taped up pictures of mary-kate and ashley which is perfect

youse a ho.

2004-10-26T19:09:21Z

today i renamed TOOL TUESDAY because i came back from a class that ended early for a quick nap and slept through all my other ones.

HURRAH FOR TOOL TUESDAY

nitzberg may come tonight<3